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Queen's Gambit
03:38
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You just asked me to drop off your chess board
And then you asked me to reassess our demise
I wasn’t so so so, so surprised
All I can think about is all the ways we declined
When I came over, I was relieved to see
There was no there car there, no one for me to see
And then I left it, I ran back to my car
I put on my seatbelt
And then I drove
I went to the gym
I did my workout
And I thought it was over
It wasn’t over
There must be something
There must be something
You wanted more from me
You wanted more from me
I think it over, I wanted to help you
But I think that’s through, I’ve got more to do
There’s someone else now, there’s someone I want to see
And she won’t take this, not so easily
So I waited, I thought it over
But I decided, that’s it over
There’s no dialogue, there’s no happy scene
Just a driveway, that was empty
I was happy, so very happy
That the driveway, was so empty
Enjoy your chess board, I wish the best the for you
May we live, in interesting times
I hope we have, such great lives
We tried our best, what else is left
We said everything, we tried and tried
It didn’t work though, that’s why I
Brought your chess board, I dropped it at your door
And that was that, the final move
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2. |
Interpretive Summary
02:37
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What was supposed to last is gone
(It barely had a chance)
What was left to say has been said
(And said again and again)
We still had miles to go
(To reach a starting point)
And now if we just open our eyes
(We’ll see what we ignored)
I never want to go back there again
I guess I always knew it would end
But I guess that’s not what I said
I should’ve known what I said
I guess I should’ve known what it meant
I guess this means we’re no longer friends
I check the news I hope you’re not dead
I guess I should’ve known what it meant
I can’t believe the things that I did
(I did it everyday)
I can’t believe the things that I said
(I said that yesterday)
Can you believe I meant what I said?
(Can you believe a thing)
I just wish I knew what it meant
(Is that all it ever meant)
And you just go sit there and cry
I tried to be the right kind of guy
But I don’t know who I am at all
And that’s why we started to fall
We started to fall xX
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3. |
Friend of Friends
03:02
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It’s up to me to be
The one
From what I can see
It’s done
Im just a friend of friends
Nice to meet again
We just went to the park and we
talked it over talked it over talked it over
Talked it over talked it over talked it over
A friend of a friend of mine, comes to my, my place
Knowing the name, but not the face
Hi I heard you were the this and you did that
Oh that’s great
When can we When can we When can we
Talk I want to talk to you
I want to talk today
I made that call
I hung it up
I took the shot
I missed the shot
Picked up the ball
And took it home
And brought it back
And shot again
I made the shot
I made the shot
I made the shot
I made the shot
Just try again
Just try again
Just try again
Just try again
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4. |
Cost-Benefit Analysis
03:10
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A man lost his bird and now he walks
Where do you go when everything’s been lost
Who do you call when you’ve been made the boss
The price of the call
The price of it all
You never knew the cost
You never knew the cost
You never know what was lost
You never know if it is gone
X2
Why do I go home when there’s no one left
Everything is gone
You never know what’s right x2
Until you give it a try
Come on, let’s just try
Give it one more fight
That’s all tonight
That’s all, alright
We just gave it one more fight
And then we fight and fight
We just fight and fight
All into the night
There goes the night
There goes the night
You were always right
You were always right
I never gave a fight
I never gave up light
But that’s all Ill try
That’s all I’ll try tonight
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5. |
Preliminary Chemistry
02:52
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Im a truckload of thoughts still stuck in a driveway
Here’s another video to improve my mind state
Here’s another goal and this one works
Here’s another trick to get there first
Where am I even going, who are you
Was I right in the things I assumed
Do I like you or I do make you amused
Do I do the things I say that I do
I don’t feel the way that I feel that I feel
I don’t know how to change the rules
Do you feel the way I think that you feel
I hope I don’t make you uncomfortable
It feels like the right time so that’s scary
Are you a lifeline or will you sink me
You can’t sink me, I’m too brave
I’ve built up my ship that’s how I spend my days
I’m the captain that always says wait
I hope you are who I said you are
I hope you’ll be what I said you’ll be
Because if you’re not then it will be
My fault again
My fault again
And I blame myself for everything
I blame myself for who you are
I blame myself for where you’ll go
But it’s not true and this I know
I know I know
internal locus of control
But that’s how my mind goes
That’s where my mind goes
So I hope you understand
What it took to be your man
That’s something I don’t think you’ll understand
Maybe not for now
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6. |
Interlude
01:38
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7. |
Internally Preoccupied
03:17
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Hand me the reigns
All I want is control of my brain
I don’t need you to hold me again
I’m the eye in the sky
Got my eyes on the prize
What’s it gonna take I’ll be here til I die
You sit and smile
I like the way you smile so I want to make you mine
All this shit inside
All this shit inside it’s eating me alive
I have to go outside
Yeah I’m sorry I’d like to catch up but I need to go outside
What’s in my fucking mind
Whatever’s in my mind I can’t make it come outside
But I just keep trying
I’ll just keep trying until the day that I die
Be here when I die
Be here when I die and take what’s left back inside
You wanted me to die
You wanted me to die or else you would’ve went back inside
I think I found my light
As long as I have my light I think I’ll make it through the night
Now do you want to join my side?
If I take you by my side please don’t leave me all behind
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8. |
Someday Will Be Tomorrow
03:01
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Can i be who I want to be
I will try, I will try
The funny thing about forever
Is the same thing as tomorrow
It just never comes
Never as you want
So enters tomorrow
I hope I find tomorrow
Where is this tomorrow
I’ll be gone tomorrow
As for your sorrow
It’ll gone tomorrow
Someday will be tomorrow
Just wait until tomorrow
When you said I was lucky
I wanted to believe it
It was enough for tomorrow
Can we just make it to tomorrow
And we made it to tomorrow
Oh how very lucky
We were so strong
That only lasts so long
As for how we got here
I don’t really know how
Saying what you want to hear
That’s not how I want to be
So that’s really my fault
I should have been more clear
It all makes sense now
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9. |
Dream Journal
02:12
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When things don’t go as planned
When things aren’t as they seemed
What can you really do
What do you really see
It’s right in front of me
That much I can see
But so much that I can’t feel
So much that isn’t real
So much that isn’t real
But what’s in front of me
That’s what I can see
That’s what i can feel
That’s how I know it’s real
So when you made that choice
There was so much that I could see
How much of it was real
How much of it was dreams
I guess we’ll never know
I guess I just have my dreams
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10. |
Middle Paleolithic
04:28
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Who am I to you
X2
I was just a muse
For you
Well, what can I say
You said you’d make it go away
I don’t think I’m okay
I don’t think you’re okay
What would we have done
30 thousand years ago
We would have left
All we had was bones
All we had was
X4
There’s so much more if we explore
I promise I’ll never get bored
Will we have a place to go
I just hide and hide until I get exposed
And If I was you
I’d be surely confused
You didn’t do what you said you’d do
How is that fair, no respect for the rules
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Better relationships. more comfortable. being self. talking to family. better relationships with friends. more outgoing and sociable. exercising regularly. practicing healthy habits. meditating. eating healthy food. doing things in a routine consistently. maintaining maintenance on car. focusing on how I’m spending money and saving it. being more open to art. tracking dreams. writing down thoughts in journal. allowing time to go for walks and think. focusing on sleeping healthy. recognizing flaws. engaging with philosophy and other interests. thinking about getting a tattoo of a religious symbol. creating purpose in life. cooking new food, but mostly the same. Watching TV shows and enjoying them. listening to new music. listening to podcasts about things, such as evolutionary biology. thinking about future career. thinking about who I want to be. thinking about how a relationship should be. thinking about where it all went wrong. thinking about how to not have a repeat of the same scenario. understanding that I am capable of doing whatever I want. Understanding that I am worthy of happiness and love. understanding that there are reasons that people like me and there are reasons why people may not like me. understanding that I need to have conflict in order to grow. understanding that I can’t just let everything slide. understanding how to be my own person, even with pressure from others. trying to find out where this pressure comes from. searching for a root cause.
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